Thursday, February 27, 2014

The Way Forward against Persistent Plane Crash in Nepal

 Today is the 12 the day out of 13 days mourning of people who were permanently gone due to crash of Jumla Bound Plane (Nepal Airlines) in 16 February 2014.For the sake of them, I am writing this article to draw attention at policy level.


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The Ugliest side of Engagement with Ishani Shrestha, Miss Nepal 2013

Chalise Salina: Dd congrats hai project smile awarded bhayachha tesma action works lai ni dherai dherai badhaii:9/27, 8:37am
Radha Paudel:what ? I do not get you ?can you tell me more !:9/27, 9:06am
Radha Paudel: now i get it, thank you dear, my dream fulfilled

I just entered in to the room of my hotel in Istanbul, Turkey and turned on my laptop, I received above message from Salina Chalise. Obviously, this news made me pleased. I got more information about it and congratulated to all my supporters in Jumla, Kathmandu and everywhere. Indeed, we spent so much time, efforts and money to get a single, simple smile J. People considered it as pride of nation; it was the first time in the history of Miss Nepal and so on. Unfortunately, I didn’t find the name of Action Works Nepal (AWON) except at the last banner of the video. I was surprised; where is the ethics? When I watched the official video twice, I was more than shocked, my heart shaked due to the sentence spelled by Ishani Shrestha, Miss Nepal  2013. She said `I was surprised me many of them do not even tooth paste and tooth brush’’. Then, I numbed how she dared to say so? It was in Kudari which is the almost urban and educated area. After a while, I again watched video to verify her saying https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUolejzdixk I knew more facts from the video. She said, the AMA SAMUHA (mother’s group) formed spontaneously. Action Works Nepal www.actionworksnepal.org  has been working since long to form groups and its mobilization.

 It is unhidden fact that was Action Works Nepal was since beginning; fund raising in Kathmandu, and Jumla. In Video, there was photo of me, Radha Paudel, as everywhere. Next day, I received many message from Jumla and others why did Ishani Shrestha more than insult Jumla people? What would like Action Works Nepal’s position against it because Ishani Shrestha was Jumla due to Action Works Nepal.

I had connected to Hidden Treasurer in March 2013 through one of my relatives for Jumla’s Peace project but it was diverted to Miss Nepal. We had gone through series of meetings with Ishani Shrestha, Hidden Treasurer and other related people. Finally, we agreed to go Jumla for dental camp where the documentary would proceed accordingly. Further, the field preparation, media mobilization and coordination was the responsibility of AWON and the financial parts (transportation, medicine, doctors) was the responsibility of Hidden Treasure or Miss Nepal 2013.  From the AWON, that agreement allowed transportation for two person. However, that entire project/activities should be followed the principles and working framework of AWON. AWON considered Ishani Shrestha, Miss Nepal, 2013 as MEET (volunteer).

One of my friend said me, wasn’t it cliché, when I shared the plan for Jumla visit along with Miss Nepal 2013. I debated with many friends, took challenges to involve Miss Nepal 2013 in to the journey of Action Works Nepal. Indeed, it was very good idea and breaking the stereotyped culture as well. As guided by the philosophy and strategy of the Action Works Nepal, anyone can join in its mission with positive mindset, passion and commitment e.g. Barak Obama and any street vendor.

Though our agreement was not signed formally but agreed and shared over emails. Based on that, the fund raising and media mobilization was moved in Kathamndu. 

Fund Raising in Basantpur Darbar Square

Fund Raising in Basantapur Darbar Square
Fund Raising in Patan Darbar Square

Fund Raising in Patan Darbar Square
The first and second fund raising event were gone in Basantapur Darbar Square and Patan Darbar Square respectively. I was badly disappointed by the friends who were with Ishani. Because he asked the torn clothes which was acceptable for the Jumla people. I stepped on stage and debated on his statement. How dare you were, you took back your statement, it was not dignified at all. I am Jumli and NOT acceptable at all. I also shared it with Hidden Treasurer that was non-negotiable for AWON. That was the reason that AWON team sorted out all materials on office again.

AWON team sorted out clothes 
AWON's volunteers busy in packaging 


AWON's volunteers busy in packaging Add caption

















The dirty and torn clothes also donated 

The days moved on. Samjhana went to the Jumla a week before to manage everything includes information about dental camp, coordination with district stakeholders, community people, media mobilization and all. Ashes was along with Samjhana for assisting her (Unfortunately, Ashes never showed up after Jumla visit; reports, sharing, photos and all).
Samjhana was in Kudari with students

Samjhana and Ashesh in meeting at Kudari









Unfortunately, flight cancelled and flue next day in May 12 2014. People were keenly waiting to welcome us.  Samjhana was really supporting my mission by heart, everything was on hand. I was so pleased and proud of her.
Street Drama Perfomed by the youths 

Welcome by community

Deuda Song by youth and women










About 300 clients benefitted from the camp directly specially extracted of tooth. Many people came for filling of teeth which was not possible due to timing and funding. We also went to the Saphuli, for meeting women’s group, went to Triveni School and Kudari High school, everywhere appreciated. The support from local NGOs, clubs, schools, security, red cross, police were very much appreciated. 
Local Police Chief warmly welcomed us 
A senior Dr working 


 We shared funny stories specially I enjoyed about the Kathamdnu about 40 years back. We also lived in the birthing center of Kudari. However, there were dark sides of the camp; i) Ishani hesitated to join public for fooding as planned, ii) I was busy in taking care of pharmacy because I was worried about follow up and I noticed there were some errors. There was hanging the Ishani’s hospital banner in the gate, I saw it when I went out for food. I was mad, how they put on their banner without my permission. The Jumla’s activities; bad and good, were belonged with AWON. I asked Kehab Dhital (AWON’s staff) to take out. No one asked about it. I didn’t have any debate except photographer of Ishani though I didn’t feel that they were our partners, only donors.

Good bye from the Kudari 
 
Traditional dance encountered at HQ
Ishani and myself spoke over radio Nari Aawaj about camp and experience



When I arrived back to Nepal from Turkey, my collegues asked about the space and contribution of AWON in the Jumla’s trip.  Without support of local organization, there was merely not possible. Then I wrote and called to hidden treasurer but not connected. I also wrote email with note of disagreement.  The entire photo of Jumla was belonged with AWON’s working areas so we were expecting a call for review of video. We didn’t get anything though the Ishani’s work and video secure fifth position in World Miss 2013, that was first time for Nepal.

 We always proud what we contributed to make this happened . People often blamed to leaders and others but failed to do from their side. We forget ethics which we taught to others and expect from others. 

Through this article, I sincerely apologized from my team/friends and Jumla people who were hurt from the engagement with Ishani Shrestha, Miss Nepal 2013.' 







Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Karnali: A dark with Freezing day due to Crash of Jumla Bound Nepal Airline,16 February 2014

Nepal Airlines: The crash plane, 16 February  2014
No any argument on each human born for die, and no one able to predict. However, I have very tough time to tolerate the pain from the horrifying, terrific crash of Nepal Airlines 9BB on 16 February 2014. I have been bonding with Nepal Airlines (NA) due to association of my dear inspirational dai Vijay Lama. Most of the NA staff helped me while travelling. Many of them knew me due to spoke on his popular television program BLACK and WHITE. I also often use it while flying from and to Kathmandu and Jumla. The direct flight is easy and cheapest than other flights though bit hard to get the tickets for ordinary people. Because there is quota for the government people, security, leaders and so on etc. Officially, I do not posses anything though sometimes I also flew by approaching myself and sometimes via travel agent. My favorite route for the direct flight is via Pokhara because it flies over Dolpa. I do not stepped in Dolpa yet and secondly, I always feeling of `flying bird’ while flying over the mountain of Dolpa. I feel so proud of my country and my mountain.
 I started my journey to Jumla since 2001 by Asian helicopter where the airport under construction for black topped. I would say that I have experienced of all forms of planes and helicopter except army.  Since day one, I always enjoy in plane where most of my friends are phobic, they chanting the names of the god/goddesses and asking for the wishes for safe and pleasant flight. I don’t know why that I simply sleep even a 30 minutes flights or enjoying with big bumping.
Due to nature of my work and philosophy, most of the people in Jumla, simply love me, respect me and relation (nata) with me; some called me elder sister, some young sister, many called me Phupu (sister-in-law), some called me Thulimummy (mom’s sister). In village, mostly people called me Radha, Radha nani, Radha Sir and very few are calling me Radha jee and Radha Madam. To me, there is no minister, no parliamentarian, no rich, no political identity and so on,  I simply but from my heart called brother, sister mother, father  and jee. Some of them called me during the special days, wishing me and invite me to eat when I am in Jumla. Some are really remember me during festivals and greetings me as like kinship e.g. they touched my foot/hand for greetings. In this ocean of love and respect, very few people just jealous and blamed me. Sometimes, it is more than blaming, press released against me. Usually, I knew such kinds of messages bit late; may be a week or month or more than that. But I never upset, I never angry with them because this is not their fault, the key gap in socialization including pro-longed depression and feudal mind set and culture of Jumla.
While travelling in and out of Jumla, I am lucky and I always get opportunity to take care of kids, money, sick person, valuable materials etc. In 12 Dec 2013, I was flying back from Jumla with Sujay Lama and Dr Edmund Kellerman. They are senior Tennis coach in US and board of directors of the Project Nepal. They were in Jumla for monitoring visits of their support as well as support Action Works Nepal. But, I was busy in chatting with my Jumla friends and relatives such as Barsa Neupane Hamal and her son, EKesh Bikram Hamal, Manav Sejuwal and so many others.
Barsa Neupane Hamal  (Nurse)and Ekesh Hamal

Ekesh was playing at inside of Jumla Airport
Barsa Neupane Hamal was the daughter in law of Sarpananda Hamal, wife of his younger son (Dipendra Bikram Hamal). Sarpananda is close family friend since 2001 while we worked together for establishing blood bank in Jumla. His grandson, Ekesh had disappointed to leave his grand dad so I try to please him by shooting photo, giving snacks and playing with him. His grand dad also asked me to take care of his daughter in-law and grandson.


During that flight, a patient was also with us so I was running to find the relatives to handover the patient. Meantime, Manav Sejuwal dai was also helping me in this process. He called ambulance to transfer the patient to hospital. I knew him since 2001 as a genuine political leader, representing Nepali Congress. He was district president in Jumla. He was the first MSC from Karnali. His wife, Kantika Sejuwal is my friend and we are together in many networks e.g Women Human Right Defender.
Transferred the patient at Nepalgunj airport
Manav Sejuwal in podium 
In Jumla, there are many lovely and funny stories associated with my life and work. In 2001, I was only one woman officer in Jumla so most of the people knew me. I also know but I do not know exact name and relation even today. I keep on confuse all the time J. I do not know that the Tek Bhadur Mahatara and Nanda Mahatara were couple for long. Both were so lovely and role model couple in Jumla. Usually in Jumla, the men are so exposed and women are not and there is huge gap in socialization between husband and wife. But that was the perfect couple, work together, travel together and always smiling. Three years back, Tek Bhadur stopped me in front of his house and requested for tea. He added, pleased just called us if you don’t have time to spent with us. We were so grateful and proud with you for leading to establish blood bank and C-section in Jumla at the first time in Karnali. Mrs Mahatara added, Radha madam, I missed your long and thick hair with Sari, she put long laugh in each meeting. Recently, she just recovered from the breast cancer; she shared with me all details. She is so courageous woman as well and her husband is real role model among men (REAL MEN). They were came to Kathmandu for follow up and others stuffs along with me on November 2013.
Tek and Nanda Mahatara

Since 2001, I was associated with Devkota family when I started to stay in Hotel Everest in Bijaynagar as paying guest. This house is belonging with Mahashanker Devkota. The association is more strong and lovely when I and Bhanu were survived in terrific war between Maoist and Nepal army on 14 November 2002. Mahashanker Devkota considered me as god daughter/adopted daughter. Devkota family is really big, even today I do not know exact name and relation but I know s/he belongs with Devkota family that means with me. They also love me and support me accordingly though we are not much closely communicated except with Bhanu’s family and Chandra (recent days). I know a brother is working in Agriculture Bank and recently in Jumla’s as a In-charge. Usually, dad (Mahashanker) and ama (mother) updates the things.

Since 2001, I keep on observing a young, genuine, calm and dynamic lady in Jumla. I know her as a player, teacher, Radio anchor. Recently, she had many hats/identities such as vice president of Nepal Red Cross Society, Jumla, President of Radio Nari Awaj, Jumla and President of Mahila Shashkta Sanjal (women’s network), Jumla.  In order to strengthen her skills and knowledge, I started to coach her, use her as resource person for Action Works Nepal, brought her to Kathmandu to train her etc. Radio Nari Awaj is also a partner organization of Action Works Nepal so voluntarily I worked with her to improve her radio as well e.g. strategy formulation.  We ate together, slept together, work together several times in village and headquarter of Jumla and Kathmandu. She was also a nominee for Youth Champion Peace Leader 2013 initiated by UNDP, for details; http://n-peace.net/candidate/candidate-11. Further, she was very good friend of Samjhana, Saroj too.
Gauri as a Nominee for Youth Champion for Peace 
Gauri with black scarf and cream white in front row 

In 16 February 2014, I was in Kathmandu office. Samjhana shouted from her office `Radha didi, Radha didi, Jumla’s plane is out of contact.’ I was numbed. I knew some of my friends and relatives were flying and the nature of Jumla flight. Then I started to call Jumla and Kathmandu who were available in mobile network to ensure who were flying. Many of Jumla friends and relatives didn’t know about it, I felt bad. The name list of crew team and passengers were confirmed till afternoon but didn't know about the status of the plane whether it was lost or kidnapped or anything. Media shared very in consistence news and photos. Samjhana, saroj and www.onsnews.com team came to my residence and keep on trying to find the info by calling police, CDO, army who were involve in the rescue team in Arghakhachi. We gave up everything and paid full energy towards the plane crash. Called to Jumla and asked friends to take care of relatives of victims. In 17 February 2014, many of us gathered in Singhdarbar to create pressure for expedites the search of plane and later we gathered in Sundhara. Finally, about 500 people from Karnali and others gathered in front of the TU teaching hospital for getting dead bodies. Unfortunately, dead bodies arrived late. The process is very systematic and scientific too. Authorities called three family members and taught about the process. They gave us a form (Ante Martum) for filling the gaps about the details about victim (identification). It had 22 pages. I also was inside along with Sarpananda and Dipendra. Later, the friends from Jumla and Nepalgunj also started to come. We filled it well.  When I met Lalit jung Shahi, Bhanu, son of Ms/Mrs Mahatara (Santosh), I really hard to take breath.

About 3.30 PM, of 18 February, 2014 we received the dead bodies. We all went to the Pashupati. I was in Rajendra’s body to Pashupati by Ambulance. I was there till 10.30 PM. I didn’t like to leave the cremation till over. The entire Pashupati was full crying, smoke, occupied by all relatives and friends. Dipendra wanted to burn together of Brasa and her son so we waited for while and over only at 10.30 PM. But two dead bodies still not recognized (administrative process) because they flew at the name of different person. Manav dai and Gauri’s also not over due to political reason. Nepali congress wanted to put Manav’s body in its party office for condolence and Gauri’s mom was coming late from Jumla (initially, Gauri’s body planned to bring to Jumla).

In 19 February 2014, we started to burn our friends since morning. We did Gauri’s about 9 am where Nepal Redcross Society, player and Federation of journalists in Nepal and many people were there. She never married woman so there was confusion for performing funeral activities. Paban, Gauri’s nephew wanted to lead the process, he did fire on dead body (dagbatti), he mentally prepared for that. Unfortunately, his dad and neighbors not agree with him according to Hindu mythology. I know Gauri well, we share the plans  so Paban is right person. I also spoke with Tara (Gauri’s brother) and others to change the Shastra (mythology). I said, does Shastra write about daughter to perform funeral of their parents, my sister and myself did along with our brother so let’s change the frame of Shastra. There was big debate and finally Paban was chosen when Gauri’s mother also suggested for the same.
Then, about 1 PM, Manav’s body brought from party office, he was kept on pyre no 2, considered VIP. Sher Bhadur Deuba and Prakashman Singh were there for honoring him by putting Nepali Congress’s flag over his body.

I knew almost all, Dr Bikalpa Pokhre because I have special connection with Jumla hospital due to establishing a blood bank and C-Section. He was continuing the things which are initiated since 2002 during my time. Deepak Shrestha, a major was appreciated my book Khalangama Hamala, he was good friend of my friends. I knew all of them in a way and other except Denis citizen.

While Manav was on fire, I felt so bad and asking myself; why do I survive all the time? Manav, Barsa, Ekesh, Tekendra and Nanda were together with me while leaving Jumla in November and December 2013 respectively.  I have very bad headache. I couldn't control myself and I ran back to residence.Indeed, I love to die via air crash or heart attack though it would very panic to relatives/family/friends.

Likewise, I wonder myself, the big chunk of productive people were lost from Jumla which push back about 20 years of Jumla’s development because they are role model in all sectors; politics, journalism, teaching, banking, doctor, nurse etc.
To me, it is the more pain and lose than the Jumla’s attack by Maoist in 14 November 2002. The entire Jumla freeze and in dark.
Now, I am sick having chest infection, severe headache, none of the medicine works. I have no word to express my pain, feeling so empty in my heart and mind.

Love you all, and may your departed souls REST in PEACE. I like to borrow a word of Sarpananda dai; make the space in Heaven for me, I will come one day to see you all.
Dead bodies in TUTH, Maharajgunj

After identification of dead bodies, ready to bring Pashupati

Final good bye to all 

For video news, here is the link https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=745042455514256&set=vb.381311218554050&type=2&theater

PS: This is my personal experience and feelings, my observation Only, I wrote and share for ventilate myself, self counselling 

Monday, February 17, 2014

Heartfelt Condolence to relatives and friends of Jumla

This is heartfelt condolence to those friends and relatives who were untimely dismissed during plane crash in 16 February 2014 while flying to Jumla from Kathmandu via Pokhara.

नर्स, डक्टर् संगै थिए, बिरामी परे कि भनौ भने,
बेपारी, बैन्केर् पनि, पैसा नभैइ बीतरा पर्लान कि भनी,
राज नेता तेही थिए, पत्रकार, अधिकार कर्मी सबै थिए,
शिक्षक तेही, सुरक्षाकर्मी तेही,थियो एउटा सिङो युबा पुस्ता ।
अस्पातलबाट बचेँर जननी जन्मभुमीको सेबामा समर्पित,
आशुले छेकेन, रोकेन कसैका न्यानो अंगालोले पनि ।    
पशुपतिको प्रसाद थियो, चन्दनाथ्को घाटिमा तोरन,
अमेरिका देखी माया र सुभेछा थियो मुटुमा ।
सबार सरकारी, अनुभवी चालक पनि उस्तै,
रहेनन कोही, कतै रहेन आँखा चोखै !
नाबलक्, ब्रिदा, सिङो युवा जम्मात्,
एअरपोर्ट मा कुरिरहे फर्के मुर्छा पर्दै ।
दैब पनि निस्ठुरी रहेछ हदै सम्म कती,
बाउ आमाहरु गरिरहेछन छोरी नातिको सतिगती ।
हुन्छन दुर्घटना, मर्छन मान्छे पनि,
बुझ्दैन मन जती भुझऊछु भने पनि ।
हिउ पग्ल्यो, उगरियो आकाश जुम्ला भरी,
कर्णाली नै चिसियो, चिसायो संसार भरी ।
न जन्मने थाहा छ, न मर्ने तिथी मिती,
भेटियो कसरी कसरी जोडीयो माया र नाता पनि,
सधैं सम्जिरहनेछौ तिमीहरु जहाँ रहे पनि ।
म्रित आत्मको चिर शान्तिको कामना सहित् सर्दन्जली ।    

Monday, February 10, 2014

My Dad :)

बा,
मेरो बा,
बलाई घोडा बनाएर,
खेलेको,
म सम्झिन्न ।
तर,
आज हिंडेको बाटोको इन्जिनीर,
मेरो बा ।
लम्जुङ, झापा र कर्णाली हेर्न,
मेरा सम्बर्तिहरु कुर्दै होलन,
मैले घुमे, सबै घुमे ।
डाँकाहरु सँग लुके,
हिउसित खेले,
डोटी गए, रोटी खाए,
सबै बाले गर्द नै पाए ।
काल बाट,
घरि घरी बचाउने बा ।
अस्पातल ले हारेको छोरी,
गैंडाले छाडेको मोरी,
टीटनस्ले छलेको,
युद्दले छेडेको छोरी,
बार्म्बर् जन्मेर,
जन्म मिती हराएको काइली लुरी।
मेरो बाको प्यारो,
हिसाब बीगारे,
सोझै झटारो ।
एक्लै लड्ने,
इमान्दरको प्रतिमुर्ती,
मेहनेतिमा कमिलो,
स्वाभिमानको झन्डा,
मेरो बा।
हुन त,
सबैलाई यस्तै लाग्दो हो,
सबै भन्दा राम्रो, जान्ने मेरा बा।
तर,
मलाई धेरै लाग्छ,
हैन धेरै छ,
नमुना पुरुष,
जसले स्कुल देखेन,
छोरीलाई पडायो ।
जसले आमा बाउ देखेन,
आमाको नि माया पिलायो ।
लोकतन्त्र नाआउँदै,
संबिधान नलेख्दै,
दियो सबै अधिकार,
छोरा छोरी बराबर ।
मेरो बा,
मेरो शक्ती हो,
मेरो बा,
मेरो इन्धन हो,
मेरो बा,
मेरो प्रेणा हो ।
हुन त,
मेरो बा,
धेरै जनाको बा हो,
साझा बा हो,
तैपनी,
कहिलेकही मेरो बा,
मेरो मात्रै जस्तो लाग्छ .
मेरो बा,
मेरो मात्र संसार हो जस्तो लाग्छ .

फरक देख्दिन,
मेरो बा र मेरो आकाश .
म,
हराउछु,
मेरो बा र धर्तिसँग .
म,
मेरो बा जस्तै,
म बच्चाहरुसँग  हराउछु,
ढुखिहरु सँगै रमौछु .
कहिले कही,
झस्केर लाज लाग्छ,
मेरा साथीहरुको बा !!!
मेरा अरु बा हरु..,
सबै हो र पनि,
मेरो बा,
सबै भन्दा प्यारो र राम्रो ।
आठ दशक,
पछयेको मेरो बा,
कसैले बुडा भने झोक चल्छ,
सपना देख्छु,
पाए त प्रधानमन्री,
सुशिल दा झै,
हा हा मेरो बा ।
मृत्‍यु रोक्न सकिन्न,
थाहा छ ।
सती जान सकिन,
आमकै पालोमा अनुभुती छ,
तर पनि,
बा बिनाको संसार,
मेरो संसार रहने छैन,
मैले हार्ने दिन,
मैले गुमाउने छेण,
म कल्पना नि गर्न सक्दिन ।
मेरो बा,
मेरो खुशी ।  
मेरो प्रेम,
मेरो जीत ।
मेरो देबता ।
मेरो जिन्दगी ।
मेरो ईतिहास ।
मेरो बिगत .
मेरो बर्तमान
मेरो संसार ।

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Agreement

सहमति,
के का लागि?
कसका लागि ?
नौटन्की ।
सडक नाटक,थेटर नाटक,
फेस्बूक नाटक, के के नाटक ।
हात्ती जस्तै,
लुकाउने अनी देखाउने ।
बिल जस्तै,
कर छल्ने र तिर्ने ।
नमुना लोग्ने जस्तै,
रक्सी खाएर कुट्ने कुट्ने,
सरि मागेर लम्प्सार पर्ने ।
सह्मति,
छोरा छोरीको नाममा,
बा आमाको नाममा,
धर्म,कुल्को नाममा,
देश अनी लोक्त्रन्त्र लागि
सहमति,
फेरी अर्को झुकाउने खेल,
फकाउने खेल,
हुँदा हुँदै नगाउने खेल।
सहमति,  
मात्र सताउने झेल ।
नचाउने खेल,
झुटै झुट्को जन्झेल ।

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