The ways to eliminate Chaupadi or menstrual taboo in Nepal

Due to deep rooted harmful traditional practices, need comprehensive and collective efforts to eliminate the Chaupadi or menstrual taboo.

• 1.       Educate people about culture, its formation, evolving process and its essence in 21th century
• 2.       Developed policy briefs including pictorials, documentaries,…. and disseminate massively on Chaupadi a culture based gender based violence
• 3.       Extensive engagement with media workers/houses in order to unpack feudal mindset regards to Chaupadi and menstrual taboos
• 4.       Engaged with men and  faith healers and use them as resource person and change makers
• 5.       Awards, felicitations to those women, men, faith healers, families who transformed
• 6.       Publication and dissemination of inspirational stories on why and how they break the cultures
• 7.        Worked with schools in order to educate and creating enabling environment in schools Engaged with political leaders, school teachers, social leaders
• 8.       Media mobilization: radio jingle, radio programming including box pops from the field and policy makers
• 9.       Multisectoral; education, health, economic, assistance required
• 10.   Long term commitment required from the donors, networks and actors
• 11.   Policy enforcement should ensure from the government
• 12.   Required depth and wider studies to understand the direct and indirect adverse effects of the taboo
• 13.   Constant monitoring, follow up and evaluation should required  

1. (This is points which is prepared and share for the Mr. Suman Baral who is doing his thesis on Chaupadi).

A Woman with Disability: Hopelessness

Usually, I say namaste while walking in the village, my motto saying namaste is to encourage people to speak, interact with externals or strangers. I have already visited four districts of Karnali except Dolpa. In Karnali, people specially women, girls and young kids don't like to speak, they have phobia (Vheya lagdo in local language).

In 24 October 2013, I was walking to the Sannigaun (a village of Jumla) along with Tuka Sandwell, London, UK. We were trying to reach the health post because we are following the activities of newly constructed Miteri Birthing Center. There was suns set already, paddy fields can seen, the greenery still remain. Villagers were busy to collect herbs, harvesting paddy rice and other corps because the winter is already approached.

She just stopped when I said Namaste and asked for taking photograph. Ms. Tuka was holding a movie camera and bit behind of me, she looked like foreigner though she is Nepali woman.

We took her photos and showed her, she smiled but it was too short. She changed her face and said, it was not good because of my eye. I have already noticed her, she has only one eye. I took long breath and tried to ask, how it happened? She told her story without taking breath; she got married with a man at the age of 13 years. When she was 15, she went to forest as a normal daily work, one day she lost her vision, her eye broken of branch of pine. There was no hospital, no culture about check up and all so she used local medicines and finally cured. Then that day, she was pushed in more bad situation at home. All family members including her husband didn't pay attention. next year, her husband had has next marriage. I asked further, don't you have kids? She replied with watery eyes, how come? Then that day, my husband never come to me. I am living in a separate house alone.

Women who are living with disability they further deprived from their reproductive rights, property rights and so  many other rights.

This case is enough to review and analyze the situation so I will come up with next story.

नफेरिने शर्तहरु

समय बदलीयेछ,
छेउछौका मानिशरू पनि ।
निहालेर हेरेको त
आफ्नो भन्ने पनि ।
नयाँ बर्ष बदलियेर् ,
कहिले बसन्तमा झुल्किन्छ
कहिले शिशिर्को सिरेठोमा ।
बदलियेछ अंगालो,
फेरिएछ शुभकामना पनि ।
फेरिएका रेस्तुरन्ट
गिलासका रङ बिरङ पनि ।  
हाम्रा गन्तब्य यात्रा
यात्राका शहयात्रिपनि ।
तर ताजै छन,  
नबिर्सने नयाँ बर्षहरु,
नफेरिने शर्तहरु,
सदै सदै उस्तै शुभकामना पनि

Buna: A Martyr, A Activist and Inspirator from Badki, Sinja valley, Jumla, Karnali, Nepal

Sinja Valley, part of Badki village, Buna belonged with this village which is far from 12 hours walk  to reach headquarter

Buna was sitting as chief Guest in 16 days VAW program in 2012 , Jumla

She was sitting along with Women Development Officer

She spoke on program as chief guest, what happened in SAFE HOUSE, Jumla

Ready to bring to the River for funeral after postpartum

She committed suicide due to severe depression from GBV

Preparing for funeral by neighbors and I was there with bag (Pink)

Preparing at the bank of Tila River , Jumla

Burn the death body, ending everything 

Buna Rokaya, a Martyar: Governemnt Failed to Provide Justice

Not surprisingly, Nepal has the best policy to ensure the rights of women and girls in many ways. Likewise, Nepal is operating thousand of NGOs and Human Right/Women Right/Right Activists across the Nepal and it is increasing in trend to seen many right based organizations and individuals. Unfortunately, the ratio of killing, kidnapping, acid attack, and other forms of violence is shooting drastically. During the month of the Mangsir (November-December), 2012, 18 Nepali women killed at the name of various reasons but all fall under the Gender Based Violence (GBV) broadly. The government who is the key institutions is failed to provide safety and security even in the immigration office or within the premises of court, police office, office of Women and Child Development Office or at Safe House etc. Women and gilrs are not safe and secure at home, street, school, workplace and everywhere.

Usually the GBV cases are not heard from the west part of the Nepal specially Far West and Mid West due to lack of documentation and responsive civil society organizations and networks as well as government ignored the surveillance mechanism in entire governing mechanism largely. Only very devastating cases or cases which are not disguise at any cost, are come out for discussion  which is already too late to revive the person and become very complex issues.

While celebrating the 16 days activism in globally 2012, Nepal is paying active role, many women were killed due to gender based violence. Among them, Bunu Rokaya is one from the Badki village of Jumla district, Karnali. She is 35 years old, having three children. She had 2 years girl from the second marriage. Her husband raped him indeed while sleeping with other two children after death of her first  husband. He committed to love and marriage so she remained quite but she become pregnant. About five months, her sister in-law recognized and explored the situation. Finally, villagers made consensus and the guy and his family accept as her. She started to stay that house but her husband didn't pay much attention as he committed during rape and after in front of the villagers. The days pass on, she had disputes with mother in-laws several times at the name of kids and other things. One day, by the help of friend, she came to Women Development Office, a government's primary entity to address violence of women's right. She started to stay in the `Safe House' or `Shelter' with her small girl. According to the safe house norms, this is temporary shelter, allow to stay only for 15 days and required special Constitution for more than that. But she was there more than 35 days.

In Dec 8, she was the chief guest along with Chief Justice (District Court) and inaugurated the program jointly. She also spoke in front of the public and ask to provide immediate support to reintegrate home. Her husband has already left home and went to Achham for taking care of goats. So she wanted to back as early as possible because of her two kids. She demanded simply to create enabling environment to initiate dialogue or mediation where her mother in laws involved and get rid of from such violence in future.

All concerned stakeholder; Women Development Office (WDO), Chief of Safe House and Police Officer, were there. It was informed to Chief District Office and almost all district organizations somehow aware on it. Instead of getting prompt justice, she observed the disputes between WDO and safe house. 

Meantime, the police, LDO and CDO also knew about it , she was waiting and waiting with all circumtances at safe house, psychological state due to her children at home. Unfortunately she losed her mental state and become depressive (as mentioned by the villagers). Finally, she committed suicide at the evening in Dec 15, 2012. Due to passing the comments to each others and families matters, again took a time even doing postpartum. After 2 days discussion, CDO, activists and others managed to inform family members and negotiated with them. In Dec 18, postpartum  done and also did the death ritual in Tila River. During death ritual, except family members, none of the activist, representatives of CDO, WDO, safe house representatives were there except Radha Paudel, President of Action Works Nepal. She was only one woman to join the deah ritual. People said that it was a first even where woman involved in death ritual.

In the morning, 19 Dec, 2012, relatives had meeting and also invited civil society organizations and others in order to inquirer with CDO about the further plan. CDO had has almost zero plan for further. Almost all participants spoke up and blamed to the CDO for its negligence. Later, CDO agreed to formed an Inclusive Investigation Committee and provide immediate relief support to three kids and their long term plan. The committee extended its date three days more that applied the end day of 2012. The relatives and neighbors were enthusiastic to support her, later the degree of support, emotions, commitment just faded up. Personally, the formation of investigation committee biased and not properly workout. Indeed, it was policy matters in working gender based violence (GBV) and its response specially safe house.The role of district women, child welfare office and safe house are critical areas to review, analysis to respond GBV.

I was shocked and can’t sleep that night, sometimes, I saw Buna and her life in dream.  I honored to meet her, assist her and participate in her death rituals and justice mechanism so far. I brought the issue in to the national policy discourse. A safety and security of SAFE House included in the demand of GBV movement including Occupy Baluwatar 2013.

 Why Buna was Martyr?

Because it is not a joke to come out home, speak up against family members in Karnali. Buna lived in such as far and traditionally faith village. Further, she was raped and managed later in rapist home. She had more two children. Due to having many dimensions within herself and her society, she came to seek support to Women Development Office but not get the adequate and proper support as supposed to get. Later, she caught severe depression and commit suicide.  she came to the government (a concerned stakeholder) for her legal and other essential treatment.

In addition, she was a chief guest during the interaction program in Dec 8, 2012. She was my source of inspiration. I got opportunity to address because of survivors of gender based violence. Thus, she was martyr for me though no one talk about it and I also didn't like to disclose at that moment but felt guilt. So I wrote this blog for salute her contribution to women's right movement.

My Deep Regret : Not able to Help a Woman who faced Attempted Rape by her Boss: At Human Right Commission, Jumla

April 2013, I was in office of Radio Nari Aawaj, with local women activist in Jumla. A woman called Menaka Pokhrel  (here I disclosed her name because she allow to disclose, hereafter survivor) wanted to meet chief of Safe House, Bhagwati Shrestha, seeking support against attempted rape by her office chief (hereafter perpetrator).

She shared all stories;

• ·         Survivor started to work in Jumla for about 3 years, with her husband. She did second marriage with this husband and he also used to work as security guard. She  joined campus for her further study.
• ·         Perpetrator  recently joined, started to eat with the same kitchen
• ·         It was 30^th day of eating together (Chaitra 3, 2069),  during power cut, about  7.30, he asked to put the warm water, while she supposed to out from his room he attempted for rape. fortunately, she escaped.
• ·         Her husband back from neighbor’s home, then both men fight badly. Perpetrator threatened to them to terminate job of both in case of disclose the reality.
• ·         So, they kept quiet, fortunately or unfortunately, perpetrators  asked justification with Survivor and  terminate job of survivor’s husband.
• ·         Meantime, survivor was in deep sorrow so took 10 days  leave. She was severely  tortured by her husband, blaming  her character.
• ·         In this scenario, she decided to registered the case for justice. It was 9^th day already. She went to police office. Unfortunately, case was not registered. Thus, she was seeking support from the women activists who ran Safe House in Jumla.

We all went to the police office, met woman and man police inspector, office time already over so dispersed to meet next day.

Next day, I had already talked with DIGP Bimla Thapa, few activists, lawyers in Kathmandu  though the case was not registered. Man Police, inspector called perpetrator and asked for resolved. He also called to local women activists, perpetrator also threatened, blamed to them as well. Meantime, I also called Gauri Pradhan , in Kathmandu. He also NOT happy with me and said what type of case you were supporting?  Later, I was quite busy to receive many , phone calls, meeting people and women activists , they all were saying I took forward this case otherwise no women had have voice in Jumla. I got threaten phone calls too.

Resignation Letter from Women's network 

I started to work in Jumla since 2001, I never like to build dependency among the local leaders.  Before I left Jumla, an investigation committee also was in Jumla from  National Human Right Commission.  Finally case was registered at police office, took five days to registered.

In the beginning, local women leaders were really working so hard, updated me, asked me the suggestions. They  meet press, met BAR association and others. Local women leader also resigned from their women’s network at police office.

Press Release by Women's right activists/networks 

Press Meet, but not covered by media 

However, except women leaders and few journalists, majority of the stakeholders police, lawyers, journalist, politicians etc all were on side of perpetrator.  It means that case didn’t get space in media and anywhere. I keep on receiving many phone calls.

Women leaders are not unified, not properly skilled, politically divided , manipulated very easily, hesitate to take stand, low confidence etc so they didn’t like to continue the support to Survivor.

Later, I asked to forward all documents and shared with WOREC, NAWHRD and about more than 50 journalist. I spoke myself with many of them. But no one ready to take this case forward (The reason myself and my organization was not talking lead role because my organization doesn't have a single money, whatever my organization is doing, doing by passion and commitment at voluntarily basis.  Further, myself is a member of WHRD, my organization is working with NAWHRD and WOREC. So referring to these institution is not also wrong at all. I always considered that WOREC is the parent organization to work on GBV in Nepal.

I didn’t see any progress, then survivor came to Kathmandu. I suggested to her o meet NAWHRD, WOREC and Dr Renu Raj Bhandari. Survivor and Dr Renu were worked together at national Human Right Commission when Dr Renu worked as Rapporteur.  Survivor went there, met all in May 2013.  

Survivor again called me in June 2013 when I had had accident but I was keep on thinking about her. I also do not see any interest among women local leaders who were together in the begging. But, there is rumor that this case was manipulated by Radha and so on.

I have experienced of various forms of gender based violence (GBV) since childhood. It took long to realize the GBV and confidence to fight against it. I also engaged to support when I started my professional career though I didn’t have formal education on GBV before 2011.

When I started my full time career in Action Works Nepal, I actively engaged in fighting against GBV. Everyday, I worked on GBV for response and prevention in a way another. Usually, senior, educated women and men consult me.

Today, 10^thday of  16 days VAW activism 2013. It is right after the election for Constitutional Assembly II. Almost all media are working on GBV, 16 days VAW and organizing various activities around GBV and women’s participation. I felt so guilt, remember to Survivor  almost every day. She dared to disclose the situation but no one ready to support at all. About one month ago, I called her but she didn’t respond. I thought she changed her mobile number.

Today, 5 December 2013, again I called her and know about the following facts;

•       she defeated her case in district court, now the case was in PUNARBALOKAN court according to the government lawyer Laxman Aryal
•       She didn’t hear any response from any where
•       She went to Jumla for attempting exam in campus and tried to meet local women leaders they already change their mind and asked for resolved/meditate.  She also paid Nrs 2000 in district court due to filing the case against her office boss. She added, local women leaders blamed me again.

I do not have any complaint towards the local women leaders because they are depressed, deprived and divided politically. I feel sorry with Local Women Leaders, Human Right Commission and lawyers who asked the evidence against attempted rape. Shame L

Here my conclusion:

      How much structural patriarchal society we have specially in rural region e.g. Jumla

      No one ready to take actions, power oriented, working on comfort zone L

      Nepal’s justice mechanism is too biased, lengthy and not survivor friendly L

      Lack of skills, knowledge and mechanism on GBV response and prevention in Jumla

      Long way to go for fighting GBV specially in rural areas

Request: This is the long story, if anyone like to know please feel free to contact, I will connect with Survivor

बसायो तिमीलाई,

बसायो तिमीलाई,
गनायो मलाई ।
तेसैले तिम्ले पीयेउ,
मैले थुके ।
तेसैले,
तिमी पूर्व गएउ,
म दाहिने हानिये ।
तेसैले,
एउटा अध्यारो भित्र,
अर्को उज्यालोमा ।
फरक दिशाका हामी
रहन्छौ कती गनी गनी ।
रस बिनाको बसै    

संकटकाल्को माया

संकटकाल्को माया मेरो संकट कतै परेछ कि,
कर्फ्यु को प्रित मेरो, बन्द कतै भएछ कि .
कम्प्युटर्को माउस जस्तो चलाख हाम्रो प्रित,
ह्यङिङ ह्यङिङ भैइरहेछ बिना कुनै सकेत,
हार्डडिस्कमा शन्का छैन, कम्पनी एपलको,
म्यनुपुलेसन भाईरस हुन सक्छ, कुनै झन्झटिलो ।

तिमीलाई दिनु केही छैन

चौबाटोको भिखारी, तिमीसँग माग्ने छैन,
फुट्पाथ्को फुट्पाथे तिम्रो अगी पर्ने छैन ।
बिना लछ्य बाचेकै छु, मात्र तिम्रो लागि ,
गीत बिना नाचेकै छु, तिमी हास्छौ भनी ।
ओठहरु खुलेका छन, आत्मा जलेपनी ,
मुलहरु सुकेका छन, बर्षा लागेपनि ।
सधैं भरी एउतै इचछा मुस्कान देख्न पाउ,
जता ततै, जहाँ तही तिम्रै गीत सुन्न पाउ ।
सबै पाय, तिमीलाई दिनु केही छैन ,
विश्वाश छ माफ गर्छौ अर्को कुनै दिन ।

जुन पाये, तारा पाये

आँखा जुद्दा तर्सी भाग्थे,गलत गरे भनी,
कथा कोर्छु, नाटक खेल्छु, तिम्रै प्रीत्ले होनी ।
माया लाग्दा डर् लाग्थ्यो भुल भयो कि भनी ,
हासो फुट्यो, स्वर फुट्यो, तिम्रै साथ्ले हो नि ।
भागी भागी धेरै हिड्थे, समाजले देख्छ भनी,
नामि भए, प्रख्याती भए,तिम्रै आट्ले हो नि ।
जुन पाये, तारा पाये तिम्रो साथ्ले हो नि ।  

बतास झै पंक्षिदिन्छु

मेरो अनुपस्थिती नै तिम्रो खुशी हो भने,
पलायन नै पलायन भैरहन्छु ।
संजोग्ले चौबाटोमा ठोकिये पनि ,
सरी भन्दै अघी बडिदिन्छु ।
नबोलेरै बिना शर्त जन्मिएको विश्वाश,
भाबनामा नै झङिरहोस् शुभकामना दिन्छु ।
जित्छु भन्थेउ, गर्छु भन्थेउ जित्दै जाउ सधैं भरी,
काडासरी, छारोसरी बतास झै पंक्षिदिन्छु ।

पाउनै गाह्रो नियती

दुखान्तमा साथ्हरु पाउनै गाह्रो नियती,
दुखी, निमुखी भैदिन्छ सम्झिएर साहानुभुति ।
रोजिन्छ साथहरु पनि खोजिन्छ मात्र केही,
दुखी बिरही बनिदिन्छ नपाएर तेही उही ।
संगालेर मिउजियममा,सजायर् अती ,
सम्बेदना, स्रदान्जली नामकरन गरीवरि ।
पोखिउन शब्दहरु, छापिउन् पृष्‍ठ भरी भरी,
औपचारिक ओठहरु अद्रिस्य रहुन सधैं भरी ।

एक्मुठि कि घटिबडी,

मर्नको लागि जन्मिएको मनुस्य चोला,
मृत्‍यु मृत्‍यु नै अन्तिम लछ्य बन्छ ।
शाहस जती हुन्छ जितमा,
तेती नै हारमा बिशक्ती हुन्छ ।
मृत्‍यु स्विकार्द स्विकर्दै पनि,
अनपेछित, लेखान्तर किन भन्नु पर्छ ।
निश्वास कती थियो, एक्मुठि कि घटिबडी
फुस्क्यो फुस्किएर गयो मुठी नै नकसिने गरी ।

उत्तिस्ले जिस्काइ

तिमीले बिर्सिएउ कि के गरेउ तिमी आफी जान,
त्यो मन्दिर, त्यो खोला, त्यो मोटेल सबै साछी छन ।
त्यो मन्दिर उस्तै, मुर्ती उस्तै, आसिर्बाद् उस्तै,
त्यो खोला छिल्लिएर बग्छ तिमी सँग भय झै ।
कनकाको लाली गुरास सोधिरहन्छे खै तिम्रो प्रियतम,
म उस्तै भनिदिन्छु कतै उतै बेस्तै छन ।
मन्दिराको घन्टी बजेसम्म, त्यो खोला बगेसम्म,
रङ उस्तै, स्वरुप उस्तै, रहन्छ मेरो माया ।
उत्तिस्ले जिस्काइ राखी मनै नथामिने गरी,
रङ उस्तै, स्वरुप उस्तै, मेरो माया कसम सधैं भरी ।  

चोट थप्न पर्खि राछु अब

देखेको त कल्ले पायो संसारमा, लेखेको नै पाउछ,
जहाँ जाउ, जसलाई हेरु भाग्य दरो भन्छ ।
न लेखिएको साईनो भन्न नि गाह्रो भो,
सपना कि बिपना पताउन् सारो भो ।
मिलाएर भाग्य हेर्देउ भने धेरै पटक जान्नेलाई,
रुद्री पूजा, दान दन्छिना धेरै गरे बाहुन्लाई ।
गधा धोइ गाई कसको कहाँ भो र ,
भाबिले बिर्सें पछी,अहिले खोजी को पाउने छ र ।
लेखिएकोमा नै रमाउछु आजभोलि, तेही सबै सुख,
चोट माथि चोट थप्न पर्खि राछु अब ।

तिम्रो घोषणा पत्र को हिस्सा माग्दै छु

म रोए बेसरी,
रुन्न भन्दा भन्दै रोए ।
भोट् दिएको मैले विश्वाशले हो
लोग्ने र छोरोलाई छलेर हो ।
किन भने
म लोग्ने हैन
म छोरो हैन
म शुरछित छैन
मेरै श्रीमान सँग
मेरै दाई सित
मेरै जन्म्दिने बाउसित ।
थाहा छ
वास्तवमा म तिमी सित पो  शुरछित छैन
मैले भागेर
लोग्ने साशु सबैसित भागेर
पर्खालहरु नाग्दै, भाच्दै तिमी कहाँ पुग्दा
तिमीले न्याय को बदलामा
मलाई बेस्या भनेऊ
अपराधी लाई सज्जन मानेउ
शायद तिम्ले बिर्सेंउ होला
म बेसहरा बनेर रोएको
म पुलिस चौकिमा एक्लै मरिन्जेल रोएको ।
म तिनै आशुका दानाहरुभित्र
तिम्रो एतिहस अडिट गर्दै छु
तिम्ले आशुहरुमा दुबुल्की मार्दै
गरेका बलात्कार, तिम्रो एस्म्ग्लीङ
तिमीले मेरो निबेदन लुकयेउ, बयान फेरेउ
तर म बयान फेर्दिन
म तिमी जस्तै पुन बलात्कर गर्दिन
म तिम्रो घोषणा पत्र को हिस्सा माग्दै छु
यो पाला हैन , पोहोर साल्को
म रुन्न अब पुग्यो
मैले नेता चिने, छाने न्याय दिने को
मेरो गलत निर्णय
मेरो पास्चतापमा जलेर म रुन पर्ने छैन ।

सुतेको छैन, उठेको को नै कहाँ छु र

सुतेको छैन, उठेको को नै कहाँ छु र
हेरेको छैन, आबाज् छेक्नै कहाँ सक्छु र
बिद्रोह छ, धड्कन् बडेको पक्कै हो
कसरी भनु, मेरा शाछी बकिदिने को ?
निरिह बनेको छु परिस्थिती तेस्तै जिर्ण
सुतेको छैन, ठगिएर आँफै आँफै
निश्वासहरुसँग शरण मागेको हो
धड्कन्सँग भागेको हो
थाहा छ म चोर् हैन
विश्वाश छ म ठग् हैन
निस्ठा छ म आत्मघाति बम हुने छैन
तर पनि म कसुर मुक्त छैन
डदेलो लगेको सपना को सिरानीमा
सुतेको छैन, उठेको को नै कहाँ छु र

Khalangama Hamala: A book of mine, A WAR memorior

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A Nepali proverb says; `River will revert after 12 years’. Almost same thing happen in my life. I wrote this book right after third week of war in Jumla. 14 November 2002 was the attack day. There was huge and destructive war between Maosit insurgency and Nepal Army.  I was the first civilian who got chance to leave the place as a rescue through four sitter helicopter. Likewise, I might  first who  back to Jumla with determination, considering rebirth in Jumla for the sake of cause or Jumla people.

From airport, directly I went to the hospital then back to the residence by crossing the army sports  ground. Near the bridge of Jugad river, in front of the sports council and Science Academy center, I was stopped while and thinking of people who were died during that day. Thought, the exact data don’t know yet, I saw 47 dead bodies in Army Sports ground. But I was kept thinking about DSP (Deputy Police Officer) Mr. Bijayashor Ghimire whose body was burnt well. By considering his belt, a piece of it, a burnt piece considered his dead body and Nepal army brought it to the Kathmandu to his family. That incidence pinched me very badly. And many questions came to mind; why were people fighting? why did conflict in such a peaceful country Nepal? Did poor, marginalized groups get justice? What was the meaning of peace and justice ?..............I thought I must write for the future generation about the entire experience of war since day, of course 14 Nov was the main story. In order to do justice, to educate future and to bring sustain peace and justice, I started to write and finished within the third day of onset. I was keep on try to publish. I couldn’t make afford myself due to cost and marketing. The people who from rural, poor, non political family has really very tough to get connection with pioneer publisher. In 2013, it was owned by NEPALYA. Thank you Nepalaya.

This book was launched in 23 may 2013 at Nepalya office. I owe 10 % royalty but I have already committed to construct Peace Commemoration (Miteri Shanti Batika) at Bohoragau, Kartikswami village in Jumla at the memory of 247 people who died during a decade more war in Nepal. For details;www.actionworksnepal.org

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सयपत्री, मक्खमली

सयपत्री, मक्खमली फुलहरु गम्केर पत्रै पत्र
मौरी आयो कसरी, एक्लै सुग्दै छ पत्रै पत्र 
काग करायो, कुकुर बसायो, गाइको के कुरा
गलाहरु, दलान्हरु,मन्दिरहरु सबै पवित्र 
प्रेम पायो, जिबन पायो, पायो सबै नछत्र 
सम्झन पर्नेहरु बिर्सेंर, मान्छेहरु अल्पत्र 
पत्रहरु छोए, सुघे, फेल पारे रित्तो मात्र

न कोख छ न काख ?

कोखबाट मान्छे  काखमा झर्छ कि खस्छ ?
म सम्जिन्न कोख कती मज्जा थियो ?
तर किताब भन्छ गज्जब हुन्छ ।
कती गज्जब मैले सोधिन गुरुले भनेनन,
तेही किताब जानोस बा तेही लेख्नेहरु?
ए ए किताब त सबै तिनैले लेख्थे,
जसले  कोख मुन्छे को जिबन भर बर्दान पाएनन
खैर् जे होस्, जो होस् कोख कोख नै हो ,
संसारको सत्य, कटु सत्य, रिसैले मरेनी नहुने,
 पैसा - हा हा नो भ्यालु, भालु हुन्छ आलु ।
आज चराइरहेको, पोलिरहेको तेसैले हो
न कोख छ न काख ?
कोख न म सम्जिन्छु न सोध्नलाई---- छैन ।
काख म सम्जिन्छु,
कती मायालु, सुरछित, सन्सारै तेही,
नयाँ शब्द थप्दै छु शब्द कोस्मा थप्न, आशा छ भेटिन्छ
आफसोच मान्ने कि भाग्य ? खै के हो ?
काख छोटो रह्यो, सपना जस्तो जस्तो ।
भुज्थिन धेरै थियो, बुजे थोरै भयो .
झुक्काएर कतकती, अरुले नभुजे, बिर्सिये निदाये मात्र ।
तेही पनि छैन अब, अरु कोही खोस्दैनन, अ ह कोही पनि
मेरो काख, म शुरछित् रहने काख धेरै टाढा छ,
म सपनिमा देख्छु, म सुत्न सक्दिन, अरु के के  .
लाग्छ काख कहिलै मलाई सम्झन्न, बाहनामा निस्केको  
छितिज बाट चिहाएको  हुन्छ रे भन्छन      
भो म  छितिज चिन्दिन, सपनिमा  न आउन
कोख बिर्सेंर हुँदा काख बिर्सिन्न किन हुन्न .

म तेही शहर फर्कदै छु,

Dedicate for Jumla

म तेही शहर फर्कदै छु,
जहाँ म मरेर बाचे, बचेर् मरे ।
जसले मलाई रुन सिकयो, बाँच्न सिकायो ।
म तेही शहर फर्कदै छु ,
जसले मलाई फर्केर हेर्न सिकायो,
आफैलाई प्रश्न गर्न सिकायो ।

तिनै प्रश्नहरुको उत्तर खोज्दै,
खल्टखुल्तिमा माटो भर्दै,
नयाँ नयाँ बिउहरु छर्दै ,
म तेही शहर फर्कदै छु .

ढल्केको उमेर, लुलो खुटै भएनी,
शान्तिको बिगुल फुक्न,
मीत लाउदै,सँग संगै बाँच्न,
म तेही शहर फिर्दै छु ।

ढतेलोको काडा बाटई भरी भएनी,
स्याउ र ओखर्को स्वाद्ले बिर्सेंको छु,
धान, कोदोका बालाहरुले उतै हानिदै छु,
एउटा विश्वाश र निस्टाले तानिदै तानिदै,
म तेही शहर फर्केको छु ।

छाती फुलेको छ,
आँखा ओभनो पनि,
आतुर छु अगालिन अनी मिठो चुम्बन,
म तेही शहर फर्केको छु ।

तिमीलाई हासो लाग्छ,
मेरो शहर मा फेस्बूक छैन,
मेरो शहरमा चिप्ल्ने कार छैन,
मेरो शहरमा तिमी जस्ता चिप्ला कुरा छैन,
मलाई थाहा छ तिमीसित लामो लिस्ट छ
मलाई होचाउन, मलाई गिरौन,
हेर
मैले त भनेकै छैन
मेरो शहरमा के के छ
मैले गुगल्मा राखेकै छैन,
मेरो शहरमा के के छ ?
मलाई रिस छैन कसैसित,
आउ स्वागत छ मेरो शहरमा,
संगै मिलेर खोजु, खेलु
मेरो शहरमा के के छ ।
तिमी आएनौ भने म पर्खने छैन,
तिमीलाई बाइ बाइ गर्ने हिम्मत छ ,
मेरो शहरको भाग्य कोर्न,
म तेही शहर फर्केको छु
भोज पत्रमा खबर गर्दै
म तेही शहरमा शन्ती हरु जन्माउदै छु      
म तेही शहर फर्कदै छु ।